15 January 1954 Ask Louise to go steady with me tonight while we were down here at my place in my bedroom listening to the radio. It was about 12:30 and we had just gotten back from a church party after a basketball game that we had played at.That was Clarence again. They were married in September of that year.
Another rough day. I slept well though. The Big Problem of a couple of days ago is still embarrassing but was all worked out and I don't even care that much anymore. Was mostly just mopey today instead of frustrated. I slept okay last night. Had a good workout. I went straight to Cascadia from the gym and did some work there and then about 10 I found I had to go up to Whidbey because the excavator thought I had said it was okay and since he hadn't heard back yesterday just figured he could go ahead. Which he should have known otherwise, but it wasn't a big deal. So I went straight from there in my regular street clothes and borrowed some died equipment from Jana and it was okay. I left about 10:15 and got there at around 12:15 with a stop at a store for some lunch material. Nothing of importance was disturbed. Weather was nice.
Last time I went through this I kept it all bottled up and drank it away (ha, 'away') and ended up blowing years of my life on a PhD.
However, it will also be a test of the New Me which I hope she notices. In a good way.
Yes, I broke down sobbing again later this afternoon, while I was playing my guitar. "I am Weary (Let me rest)".